Please allow me to hide but I beg Shee name but my story because I believe it will help your readers learn from me. I am a woman of 27 years, as a mother I married two years ago by a man whom we remain in a relationship for about four years before getting married. When we met I was a first year college and he was already working.
Honestly, I loved my husband before and after marriage and even though the act was done for me I can not forget to in my life. The beginning of our love was very civilized, attending me for everything, mindful of my feelings and always cares for me and show me that all the time from the beginning was saying that I am married to a woman who angapenda.
Although I loved and was showing true that I believe he means, since I know all men are liars. But really showed love me, his problem was jealous and angry, that is always wanted to be with me, did not want me to have boyfriends. Each friend who had seen him walking with him and he felt it very lilinikwaza.
I remember one time when I am 'Discussion' and my classmates called me I delay receiving, so he was sounded like twice, asked me where are you, I told him I am on the 'discussion' lit the car and come to college, he found me I am and three brothers that we were doing 'assigment 'he nichomoa blows between them and beat me in front of them, then he took me to his car and leave me.
The act very kilinikera as far and hurt physically but also humiliated, but I come to forgive me for having too much relief. His claim was for why should I be the 'discussion' and men alone, the reality was that our group of six people was three men and three women but two of my friends were late we were in so we decided to continue.
It passed practically promising he will not repeat again, things went smoothly repeats will reduce but not jealous, he very niminya to make me exclude many of my friends just to satisfy him because I did not want a conflict with him. With him having such a jealous and very kunichunga but several times I take by surprise messages of his other women on his phone and I asked was a quarrel which led to even beat me.
For that reason I decided kutokumuuliza, until I found a woman in a complex environment, I made myself blind because I loved and I endured iposiku I believe that will change. After finishing college I found something that was working so it was remains to marriage only. In fact I was very interested in marriage because I was loved and I know quite large after marriage will change.
I believe that having put me into not being jealous again and will be ready to strike me as he had been dominion over me. Scalp believe I was jealous because of its all thanks to his love for me and afraid to destroy me: but I believe after marriage would be easy for me to change.
I spoke to him about marriage but he told me I should be patient "Unaharaka did marry?" His answer was yes and because I knew him as a man of anger, then I remain silent so as not muuzi. One day I was a little late from work and when I leave a coworker with whom she had a car and was sitting in the surrounding neighborhood and I was planning to decided to give me a lift.
Several times he came to me a ride but you take it down to him and I have to walk up to me because there was far too much, but that day it was too late Akua decided would lead me to the gates. Alinishusha to leave her, I went in I found the door is not closed I only know my partner is in because he had my keys and was usually come without notice.
When I just I do not have this or that, I met with a slap that was followed by a kick lilionidondosha down, before even I wondered what someone tapping foot and I heard 'kaaaa' leg had been broken. He did not mind continued to beat me and he left in anger when he hit me he was insulted that I'm a prostitute and I've reached the point that my men brought me to the home.
He left me when I was in pain, I tried to get up but I could not, fortunately, yet when he beat me the neighbors heard and came out in anger they had seen and heard crying in pain came in and met me at the situation and decided to send me to the hospital for kunipitishia police first. Although I have been refused by the police fear that my partner will shut but they refused, saying I can not be treated without PF3.
Actually I wrapped the leg collapsed POP, in the police after writing notes they want to open a case but I refused to cooperate, it is after me for forgiveness and kunivalisha ring while still hospitalized. My brother asked me to give him too much but I did not hear, he told me it was the devil had been through and I believe, very apologized and promised to change.
After I had dealings with him for not giving money to the police case completely deleted and I still have my POP formally introduced himself to us even though they knew gave dowry and marriage plans began to take place. If four months leg healed well and I can walk without the aid of crutches and five month after beating what we were married.
The early months of our marriage was tasty indeed and it did not take very long marriage reacted, I got pregnant something that multiplies happiness, became one of joy, and reduces envy and there was no longer beating. I thanked God for the change because I was happy again with my husband knew he was caring for a gift, outing enough to vacation here and there.
In fact things were good until four months pregnant After I turned, there he proved to begin to say that he does not want me to work, at your office has many men, jealous and turns and noise may not persist. Nilimgomea stop working because I want to be a housewife, countless work itself is beautiful and has a great interest so I saw no reason to stop work and remain a housewife.
At first I did not know Why did the issue of fear work came suddenly when he had previously refers not, but when I came to investigate when I realized whom he was walking with a sister at our office and did not want me to know where he saw is better to quit my job.
One day while pregnant with like five months has reminded me of the issue fingernails work. Although I did not want to talk about the sister's angry because I know her and I accepted the living and the same even if he escapes but I was incensed and determined and reported the fact that the reason for wanting me to stop work was the sister of the office.
You do not believe it was as if I do I avoid, he wakes and starts insulting, he insulted me so much, because I know his anger, I decided to remain silent and that too was done, he started to beat me, saying that I despise, he beat me very different parts regardless that I was pregnant, I did not do anything every time I fold to prevent stomach stripes.
After completing took me and beat me up in the house to go to the store and then she went to sleep. In fact I had a sharp pain that in my life I had never attained in particular abdominal area and below the navel, blood started from and then I know that I have lost my son, I tried to shout to 'pregnancy has gone but never heard until morning when he nifungulia.
She found me I lost consciousness, lumps lump of blood are shown below. He took me to fear drove me to the hospital but he took me to the clinic just a friend who told him that the pregnancy has gone, I cleaned and would tell anyone took me home. Throughout the day he was asking me for forgiveness but I was willing to forgive him, all the thought I had my baby angry man zilinipanda be firm just raised.
Throughout the week he used to serve himself, I began to get better, I told anybody not even my brothers because they shanikataza married to the man, I just told them about the pregnancy I suddenly falls pregnant flowed. Two weeks later I still work at home because they knew me from other pregnant stomach began aching again, this turns to a more powerful and dark objects like dirt starts to come out of the vagina.
I called my husband, who came to meet me just overwhelmed, he brought me back to the same his doctor when I stayed there two days and the situation became worse when he ponipeleka Allied, told them that I had an accident pregnancy came out, I am going to be cleaned, they ponichunguza And they said that I was cleared badly by a generation touched by kilishaoza yes For natokwa dirt and pain.
They had no way of taking it over completely and cleanse me as very kilishaharibika. It was very sad, I cried and collapsed five times after the news. My dream that Mama was imesishia when my husband tried to console Me and comfort but that did not help, gave me a heart that he would love me and not where the child but I still hurt and I had no one to tell my pain.
I stayed in hospital for a week and I started to feel better physically I was allowed, I wanted to leave my husband but I failed. There are two things that yalinizuia first was how to tell my brothers to leave because my husband when they know that I am happy with what happened in our marriage is just a normal accident, considering they did not know that I've lost generation.
Secondly, I think it is what a man could marry me especially knowing that I can not give a child? I knew that no man could kunivumilia unlike my husband especially given that he is what he caused me the problem. I endured and continued life happy and returning for a little while until I realized that he had impregnated another woman entirely different from that of the office.
I remained silent only because I knew if I spoke would create problems, it would defeat countless not depend on whether he would sit with me without finding the child other part, even though I longed to have a child I wanted to nurture and I took courage as he nileteea then I would take care of him no grudge whatever. But it was not without any ugomvwi without relying on just one day told me.
I can not live with a woman who does not bear, I persevered but have failed, now here I'll be doing? Kingdom would be established with difficulty maybe tubes imeziba we struggled with, but you do not have generation and you can not find a child, we lived right up with you. I already have my pregnant man so he wanted to come live here.
I know that you've contributed so lakindi is ishatokea have not what to do, I can not return them to your seed but also I can not lie to you that I do not want a child, and I need namhitajisa and have a family. I only see you leave, I nakinyongo with you but I can not live with you anymore, I can not act anymore.
He spoke very slowly, his eyes showed that she meant what he was talking and he was not ready to go back. Nnilimuangalia twice and I know there is nothing I say will ever change his decision. I found myself just say "OK" then any words what I Onge, but wanted to share the property, I do not give me a car and other things I just looked.
Nika closed my mind, I did not want to take anything. The next day I gathered everything I had bought with my money and leave, tried urged to divide everything but I refused, I wanted to start my life anew without him. Now I live myself and I'm trying to find happiness again, I do not need to work again najikita man.
We are in the process of formal civil divorce, but the brothers do not know because they just felt maybe he's been nipiiga though nawakatalia. I have decided to forgive my own in favor of peace with God namuombea happy in his new relationship, namuombea woman yasijekumkuta as my colleague and I believe if he senses he has learned he can not call her anymore.
I know I can not bear, but that does not mean I can not be Mother, there are children many orphans are in the streets looking for the parents and my plans are now seeking money so I turned 33 I can have my home and a better life to be able to raise two children who I plan to ku to 'adopt 'my very being.
About men I think for now I have no feelings at all, I see I see as my only women, not hate, but I do not desire them. The deciding factor Shea my life is so young daughters to learn that you can not just change a man character, endures all things except as to show zero tolerance for, do not enter into a marriage and think you can change him man is hard, man is baidlika when he decided to change himself.
I know you were the center will not see the eyes are closed and took courage for your yamwenza look good but do not be blind to see the clear. He has many women you tolerate longer wants to show and not see it as a bad thing, is make you endure day he broke a leg or give you a permanent disability then you will regret as I shall fear because you do not have the criteria that had previously they had led love you.
TOA MAONI YAKO HAPA,MATUSI HAPANA
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